Frecklewonder

and we wait

hello, friends. i'm sorry i've gone on so long without an update of any kind. it's been an exceptionally difficult two weeks or so for me around here, and it's safe to say that the only crying baby in my house right now is me. i really want to thank you all for the nice wishes, it means a lot to me.

i wish that i could reach out and hug you all. or send you all something nice in the mail. or take you out for a girly lunch. i appreciate you more than you know.

i've been stricken with a pretty awful case of THIS. and let me tell you, it sucks. basically, i haven't had any sleep at night and i am walking around the world like some sort of foggy headed zombie, getting increasingly grouchier as the days go on. sleep deprivation will do that to a person. i could handle waking up for night time feedings, NO PROBLEM, i just can't take this awful numbness and tingling for one more day. i literally wake up shortly after midnight, and can.not.go.back.to.sleep. at times, i can barely use my hands, my grip is so weakened from the daggone numb tinglies.

anyhow. this is a real lesson in patience for me. i probably should have never gotten myself excited in thinking that she would have been here by now. it doesn't help much to see that most of my lady friends online are snuggling their new babies. i know i sound like a Super Crank right now. i am really happy to see all these healthy, lovely little things, i really am. :) i just feel so anxious about my own that i could pop.

oh, and speaking of "pop". a word of advice to those non-pregnant folks out there: it is probably not the greatest choice to use the word "pop" when you are talking to a woman who is 40 weeks pregnant. you know, as in: "you look like you're 'bout ready to pop!". yeah. i'm just sayin.

while i'm sharing my two cents, may i offer a piece of advice for all you pregnant ladies out there: tell yourself that your baby is due two weeks after the date the doctor gives you, that way when you find yourself at the 40 week mark, you won't be counting every second and wondering why your baby seems to have lost the directions on how to get out of the womb. just get that later date in your mind and stick with it. you'll thank me for this, i promise.

in an effort to sort of brighten my world, and occupy my idle time, i made some totes and a small update to the shop. i have these items packaged and ready to ship. should my uterus decide to get in the game in the next day or two (fingers crossed), i have some lovely assistants on hand here to get the packages to the post office.

until next time, i hope you all are well. xo

thinking and waiting

so i've been thinking, isn't 40 weeks technically ten months? i dunno. i'm just sayin.

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sorry it's been so quiet over here on the ol' blog. truth is, it is taking pretty much all i've got just to get the basic daily stuff done with myself and my family, and maintain the shop. i can't keep up with emails to save my life, and my house is a bit of a disaster at the moment.

the time is near. and, man am i happy about that. this has been a really long haul. thinking back on it all, it's pretty wild how different one pregnancy can be from the last. with henry, i had a really straightforward, simple, easy peasy time. i threw up twice. once was totally my fault, as i thought washing down a bowl of spaghetti with a tall glass of orange juice sounded rather tasty. imagine that coming back up. ew. i also worked on my feet all day long until the last two weeks before delivery.

this time, i can't even tell you how many times i barfed, or how exhausted i was, especially early on. i joke that i slept through the month of september, but if you were around my house at the time, you wouldn't argue with that statement. and there isn't a snowball's chance in haiti that i would be able to work outside the house, on my feet all day long, wimpy as that sounds. my back k-k-k-kills right about now.

i can only hope that one thing will be hold true for both, and that's the labor. i am definitely anxious about it, definitely nervous, but it is so near that i am also excited, and i am trying to remind myself that i did a darn good job of it the first time. with only about 2 hours of pushing, somehow i managed a natural birth which is what i hope for this time.

we shall see.

without getting into the nitty gritty, i had a check up on monday, and things are moving right along, all signs point to baby, if you know what i mean. she has dropped, and i can finally breathe again, which is a treat.

there is a good chance that i might package up all these orders from part 2 of this big sale and go into a bit of hiding until the big day. so if you don't hear from me in the next week, think good thoughts! i need all the good juju i can get!!!

lots of love*j